Well I dunno how to explain this... I guess I'm getting a little fed up with DeviantArt.

Not against the actual site itself, ha ha. The actual site is full of awesomesauce and win and other positive nouns/adjectives. I guess I'm just fed up with my account.

One of the things is that I'm starting to hate my username. It was pretty funny when I started out here, 3 years ago, but honestly, looking back, it was a really bad name to pick considering that none of my artwork has ever had anything to do with Eskimo Bob (a character online, if you didn't know). Nothing personal, Eskimo Bob. You're still cool as always. But for me, naming my account after something that doesn't reflect me or my artwork is pretty stupid in my opinion. I know I can just make a new account. I probably will. But all the names and favorites I've built up over three years will take some time to recover (if I choose to favorite the same stuff, I dunno). I suppose a name-change option would be really sweet, but there isn't one.

The other facet is that I'm getting frustrated with my account in general. Probably a lot of it is my fault considering I get on like every month or so (which was mainly due to school and other stuff), but there's something really nagging when I look at my account and barely anyone comments on my artwork anymore except for a couple people, mainly a few close friends. I look at my dAwatch list and I see oh, upwards of 20 or 30 people who have watched me, and yet only 2 or 3 actually comment on my account or art. What's with that. It seems like the only way I can even get a decent amount of comments is if I make some fodder that appeals to the masses, like something along the lines of a "LOL EPIC WIN" captioning a humorous photo. I look at my original art (a lot of it is unfinished, I know) and no one even looks at those. Or better yet, I'll slave over something, post it, and no one recognizes it. I'm starting to get kind of depressed about it, really. I dunno, maybe it's really a combination of me not getting on and making art as frequently and other people not getting on as frequently as well. Or me not getting on as frequently, making new friends as frequently, which leads to a decline in interest in my account.

It's not really that I want to be popular. I'm generally fine with my little circle of people. I just wish I could change my name from something that only appeals to kids (as it did to me when I was 15) to a more fitting name of who I am. I wish people recognized my art more. I wish I had more TIME to do art. But above all, the thing that's surfacing is...

I wish that my account wasn't seeming more and more like a big waste of time.

(Oh boy, thanks DeviantArt for forcing my mood to be "Joy.")